HOME

HOME. It is where you belong.

Have you ever heard the saying, "Home is where the heart is?"  It seems so simple.  That sense of "home," that typically includes the people, places and things surrounding us on the day-to-day...where we live and who we live with.  

But, for those of us whose hearts have a longing outside the home, it is not that simple.  We long for where we belong, so when we connect with someone at a Soul level, the heartstrings created can be quite powerful.  For some of us, "home" becomes those joyful moments that we long for...an erotic entanglement in a bed that is not ours, a soulful slow-dance in a living room that does not belong to us, a playful text exchange in the middle of the night.  

It is not the place where we sleep at night, but the "home" we have created inside our mind, and over time it begins to consume our body and Spirit, as well. This longing can be so strong and real, that the reality of our existence can become jaded or clouded, as we intertwine our actual existence with the one we've created in our daydreams.  

But, as we know, "what goes up, must come down."  It is inevitable that the fear of the "what-ifs" will start creeping in, as you continue your journey together.  These fears are the nightmares that keep us up at night, shadow emotions...fear of rejection, fear of abandonment...the fear of being alone.  Light-hearted conversations now become heavy-hearted arguments.

Let me explain.  Most of us have met someone in our lifetime, who lights us up and excites us for what's to come.  This is Heaven, the sun shining down on you as you walk your path, hand-in-hand, on a high that you never want to come down from.  This is Home, your truth...a feeling you want to be in forever.  

But, as Newton's Law would have it, "what goes up, must come down."  

So, what happens when that person whom you love so much, lets you down, and you come to an energetic bump in the road?  You stop walking, look around in confusion, and feel the weight of the energetic disconnect either pushing on you (feels like pressure), or pulling on you (feels like you want to escape).  This back and forth, push and pull, makes you feel like you want to move, but you are you unsure which way to go.  

Ultimately, you may be forced to find your way back home, all alone, following that heartstring that was created when you first fell in love with each other.  As you are forced back down that road, you will have to feel ALL the magical moments you initially felt, but now you will feel the dark side of those emotions, as the sun hits your back, casting a shadow.  Now, you must go back HOME, feeling the pain and suffering all by yourself and in the darkness...alone.  You will be tempted to stop moving, because the pain is just too much. But, there is no movement when you settle, no growth, no Love...not for you or anyone else.  

I encourage you to not settle.  Keep moving forward, even if it feels like you are going backwards.  You are not.  You are going Home. Home is where the heart is.  It is Heaven...your TRUTH.  It is a feeling of certainty that you will understand once you get to where you are going. You will know. You will feel good, accomplished and at peace knowing that you got there all by yourself, no longer needing that person for whatever it was that attracted you to them in the first place.  

The Truth is, we feel that pain as we walk away, as a reminder that we will feel that Love again...all you have to do is look for the Light- that sunshine beaming down on you, showing you the way to Heaven.  It is a good feeling.  Your Soul will feel that Truth and you will realize, "I did this.  I choose this.  I choose me.  I AM home.”

- Janet